BigFatOofta

Not that long ago, I did the pee on 1274834 sticks thing...and got the result of "pregnant." I was somewhat surprised. Very elated. Thankful.  Sobered. Full of joy.  Quite a bit nervous.  I should say I am still feeling a little of all of these emotions.  I'm still trying to wrap my brain around the fact that we are pregnant (in a good way)!  Barely a week after we found out, we announced the pregnancy to our friends via phone and facebook.  I would imagine that many people might find it confusing as to why we would make this announcement so early .  I realize there is a so called "safe zone," which is when someone feels like all the danger of something "bad' happening seems to be past, and it is "safe" to announce.  Let me tell you something.   I wanted to have my own safe zone .   I was excited to share the news but I was wrestling with fear.  I had a pregnancy after our first son Israel, and Joshua and I didn't wait ...

Ever have one of those days weeks where you feel like a crazy ball of emotions?  Where you go from happy to hurt to mad, to raging mad to sad all in a short time a few seconds?  Where you are PMSing? (*cough cough* but I won't mention such things).  Where you just feel numb to the world, even God?  Where you feel like you have exhausted yourself trying to do the right thing, to grow, to be: humble, gracious, enjoyable, good mom, good wife, healthy, serving others, and even just brushing your teeth before bed?  Do you just want to curl into a fetal position and give into a massive "I give up" pity party (Where you are the victim of course ) ( sarcasm...of course)? Well, I have had am having one of those weeks.  I could just blame it on the hormones (and I think I shall at least hold to that being a part of the issue), but I know that it's more.  I just wish that i could come out of this funk.  Oh...wait...I can.  I just have to unw...