BigFatOofta

disappointment.     it comes in varying degrees.   i'm pretty sure we are all familiar with the many shades of disappointment's appearance.   here are just a few ways that I've experienced disappointment lately: -target was having a sale on Starbucks but they were out of the kind i wanted.  -i want this blog to have good punctuation but my "a" key and my shift key are sticking or not working well...and then, I had a fleeting thought of disappointment that getting a new computer is not an option right now. -ligament issues from pregnancy that I've been asking God to keep away have been starting...early. -wondering why God hasn't healed my teeth.  -hubs has a meeting tomorrow I wasn't planning on. -I sinned again in an area i'm so desperately trying to grow in. -exhausted but unable to sleep well at night.  -disappointed that i have a son that is going to have to "notice" at an early age all the "sex" that is ever...

"But Daddy, I want it Noooooowwwww!!"  whines Veruca Salt throughout the Willy Wonka movie.  So obnoxious. So annoying.  So much wanting you to find your duct tape and slap it across her mouth.  Ugh.  But wait.  Isn't that annoying display a sign of discontentment?  Impatience?  Aren't I often struggling with discontentment and impatience?  I think Veruca was spoiled too, but I am not quite able to call myself that.  ;)  Anyway.  Patience.  I struggle to maintain it.  When I see something that needs to be done, or that could be done...I just want to do it.  If there is an event that I want to take place...it needs to be as soon as possible.  Sometimes, if I have a task in front of me, I literally can't "rest"...or choose not to...until it is accomplished. I was the kid who always got her new textbooks and instead of taking each day and lesson in order, in it's time...I'd immediately open the book and...

Raise your hand if you struggle with being corrected...if you take teaching and correction as pain and hurt instead of love?  If you feel defenses rising up inside of you if you feel your heart has been misunderstood...If you hear "I want to lead you to Christ" as "I want to fix you"....If you don't feel secure enough in your identity to trust a person you care about's love for you...If you crave affirmation and praise to the unhealthy level of if you don't get it, you feel undesirable...unlovable...If you are so busy trying to "feel" care from others that you step all over and refuse to care for/give grace to the person you are trying to feel the care from. Me.  Pick me.  My hand is raised high.  Both hands actually.   You know, it's amazing when you finally stop long enough to have a conversation with God, and humble yourself before him, how much easier it is to love and be loved.  Care and receive care. Understand and be understo...

I wish I could call this post "Monday Musings" because that sounds a whole lot better than "Wednesday Musings."  Hmm.  Well, I guess I'll just call it something entirely different...to be determined at the end of this post.  Came across Genesis 32:12 yesterday...and have been thinking about it since.   "And you said, 'I will surely do you good.'"   Everything about God is good.  Everything that happens that is "bad" in our lives, is just "hard."  The enemy intends  things for bad, but the Lord uses things for good (Rom. 8:28).  God can only be good, do us good, be our  good and...here's the kicker.   Nothing we do can earn His goodness.  God in His kindness desires good for his children.  Psalm 84:11 says: " For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing does he withold from those who walk uprightly."   Walking uprightly.  We can't do that on our own, (therefor...