BigFatOofta

Being a mom can be lonely. Alienating sometimes.  In the midst of every season of motherhood there can be great joy...and also periods of great loneliness. I am a mom.  I never really thought much about being a mom in my single years.  Even once Joshua and I got married, until the Lord changed my heart, I wasn't really prepared to be a mother.  Are any of us ever prepared?  Prolly not. While I have yet to be a mom of older children (not to mention children out of the house), I am in the middle of a joyous yet difficult "toddler life" season.  I have been thinking a lot lately of what it might look like with an infant soon to be added to the mix.  I have to admit, I feel overwhelmed at times...ok a lot of times. I feel fatigued.  But mostly, I feel....lonely.  Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my son and daughter (already!) and wouldn't ever trade my life with them for anything.  I just have to battle through a big mess of emotions....

I know I've been physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally weary.  I know that some of my loved ones and friends have been as well. I have battled with the emotion of defeat and failure.  Wanting to just give up.  Well, the Lord in His kindness and mercy is my rock and will lift me...and all his children...up out of the mire. I don't have an actual "post" today outside of a handful of scripture sections, and I am sharing them to both remind myself of the Lord's encouraging truth and hopefully encourage my readers as well.  "I lift up my eyes to the hills.  From where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.  He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber.  Behold, he who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.  The Lord is your helper; the Lord is your shade on your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night.  The Lord will keep you from al...