BigFatOofta

Confession. I have been going around lately with a bad case of coveting. Maybe not obvious coveting but...if you get to the heart of my motivations...it is coveting. Soooo...mainly...to sum it up...I haven't been feeling well/had a lot of pain lately (back, head, neck) and with that I haven't been active and have been extremely exhausted. Whenever I am exhausted I am also extra emotional. ANYWAY. where does the coveting come in? It comes in when I look at people going about their normal lives and wishing I could do the same. In fact, I have been wanting that so badly, to feel well and to go about my normal life.....ha! There it is..."normal life"....that has been where my heart has been. Not seeing every event as part of God's plan for me. Rather, I tend to take the good and attribute that to God, and the bad and say well..once I get through this bad, I can go back to normal life (aka the selfish desire to have no pain or problems). C.S. Lewis sums up exactly what...