BigFatOofta

Some people might say that Joshua and I are VERY much alike...that we think, act, relate, work, everything the same way.  Actually, many people  have  told us that.  Hoooowwwweeevvverrrrr......while I could create a whole reallyreallyreallyREALLY long list on how we are indeed very much alike, I thought I might write just a few ways that we are NOT alike...at all...for the lighthearted fun of it.  ;)  Joshua...I'll try not to go tooooo personal here... ;) Oh...also, I'm gonna refer to Joshua as "J" here b/c I can write this blog a whole lot more quickly (something "J" probably wouldn't do if he were writing about me ;) ) Disclaimer: I LOVE the differences we have and love laughing and teasing each other about them, and working on compromising or changing some of the things that are different that have a tendency to annoy the other.  Just sayin'.... 1) Words. ways in which they are spoken.  Meanings. J takes all of it quite seriously, ...

I already posted this a while back ago on facebook, but I am re-posting as it is exACTLY where I am at today... Head is spinning heart is crying not sure where to go what to do what to say this just never ends i can't find focus I can't find calm I'm anxious oh so anxious but must not be anxious must not because that is not of You Lord but where do I go when I am not sure how I got here or where I really am I mean where am I really I can't figure out what's wrong except I've been trying to be fine on my own coming to God when my way isn't working or when times are hard but wait times aren't hard they have been harder so again why am I here I want to praise Him i want to trust Him I want to know Him I want to wait for Him wait silently for Him He is my hope but I've been too prideful for my hope too busy for my love too impatient to wait too loud to wait silently too selfish to praise Him too arrogant to trust Him it's called sin I'm over...

Today I want to write a blogpost that is funny. Light. Egregious (ok, mostly just wanted to write the word egregious).  However.  I am not feeling any of the three adjectives just listed.  Rather, I'm feeling rather heavy and exhausted physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally.   I was blessed with the reminder of Psalm 103:1-5 this am by a sweet note by my husband (*sings* he wrote me a note! he wrote me a note! *huge smile*).     "Bless the  Lord , O my soul,      and all that is within me,      bless his holy name! 2  Bless the  Lord , O my soul,      and  forget not all his benefits, 3  who  forgives all your iniquity,      who  heals all your diseases, 4  who  redeems your life from the pit,      who  crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, 5  who  satisfies you...