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sarah:  hebrew; "princess" beth: hebrew; "my God is a vow"   ****(yes, i realize the absolute terribleness...and amateur schlock paint job that this picture is)**** as some of you might know, the meaning of names has become important to me and my husband, especially when picking names out for our children.  i love the meaning of joshua's name (joshua; God is my salvation and eric; mighty warrior). israel jahmai: prince of God or strives with God and one whom Yahweh protects.  also, the meanings we were looking at for our last pregnancy (the miscarriage) were meaningful. then...there is my name.  let's just say i haven't until recently, had much appreciation for it.  i never really bothered to look up the meaning of beth until now, which is a derivative of elizabeth.  i have always known that sarah means princess, and beth is just...old and boring sounding. here are what i have always associated my full name with: -sad ...

One of my greatest hesitations in telling the world about the pregnancy of baby Codispoti # 2 was....what if...what if  ...I miscarry?  It'd be easier if we just waited to see if I got to a "safe zone" before we make the big announcement.  Then I wouldn't have to deal with the emotions and pain if something "bad" happened...re-living the pain of telling each person who asks me "so, how's your pregnancy going?" that we are no longer pregnant.   Well, I miscarried.  Am in the process of it anyway.  I started lightly spotting which turned to bleeding over the course of 5 days, and an ultrasound on Monday confirmed our suspicions:  we lost the baby.  The pain and disappointment that washed over me was overwhelming.  It felt surreal, yet at the same time, I had been prepared a little emotionally before we had confirmation of what was going on.  Let me share what the Lord did in my heart (and share a little of my husbands heart...