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in need of punctuation...

I already posted this a while back ago on facebook, but I am re-posting as it is exACTLY where I am at today...



Head is spinning heart is crying not sure where to go what to do what to say this just never ends i can't find focus I can't find calm I'm anxious oh so anxious but must not be anxious must not because that is not of You Lord but where do I go when I am not sure how I got here or where I really am I mean where am I really I can't figure out what's wrong except I've been trying to be fine on my own coming to God when my way isn't working or when times are hard but wait times aren't hard they have been harder so again why am I here I want to praise Him i want to trust Him I want to know Him I want to wait for Him wait silently for Him He is my hope but I've been too prideful for my hope too busy for my love too impatient to wait too loud to wait silently too selfish to praise Him too arrogant to trust Him it's called sin I'm overwhelmed by my sin but I need not be He wants me He can have me just trying to get to "that place" it's not working on my own the enemy presses in I need You God to press him back the problem is me the problem is ME God I am not enough help me help me please and Lord, did you just say.... 

"I AM" 
For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who in every respect has been tested as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore approach the throne of grace with boldness, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. (Hebrews 4:16) 

Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. Trust in him at all times, O people; .... pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. (Psalm 62:5,8 ) 
As the deer pants for the water brooks, So pants my soul for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God (psalm 42:1-2) 

But I will hope continually, And will praise You yet more and more. My mouth shall tell of Your righteousness And Your salvation all the day, For I do not know their limits. I will go in the strength of the Lord GOD; I will make mention of Your righteousness, of Yours only. (psalm 71:14-16) 
SEARCH ME OH GOD, AND KNOW MY HEART, TRY ME, AND KNOW MY ANXIETIES; AND SEE IF THERE IS ANY WICKED WAY IN ME, AND LEAD ME IN THE WAY EVERLASTING." (psalm 139:23-24) 
i praise your name oh LORD MOST HIGH! It is right, and a good and joyful thing to give you praise!

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